all the supposes

i have this friend... he has this habit of making bets with other people, but mostly with himself about a lot of things... one of the bets included two of our friends. they're a couple with a very shaky beginning and even more dubious foundations. anyway, this friend (let's call him mike - so as not to get things even more confusing than it already is) made a bet with the girl (let's call her lisa) that when mike invites the guy (a.k.a. jake) to a boys' night out, he (jake) would rather go with him (mike) than with her (lisa). of course, lisa accepts the bet and mike goes to work on jake. mike asked him to go out with him and the rest of our guy friends. earlier that day, lisa already asked jake to watch movie with her. at the end of the day, jake asked lisa and mike to postpone their respective invitations.

recently, mike made a bet with himself. let's not call it a bet (since he's making it with himself that makes him even sillier than he is) - let's use his other favorite word: theory. he has this theory about jake and lisa. jake used to have a girlfriend while he was making landi with lisa. and lisa knew about it. the whole time they were making landi, mike would lament how stupid lisa was and how heartless jake was being. he could not believe that there was anyone as stupid and as gullible as lisa so he theorized that there must be catch here...

and just tonight he found out the catch: lisa might be stupid, but she's as heartless as jake. let me backup so anyone else reading this might understand: while the whole landian was going on, lisa also had a boyfriend. but before anything serious went on with her and jake, they already broke up. going back to the present... lisa's ex-boyfriend who we will hide under the name of francis met up with her (quite accidentally on purpose) at an open house. this is where mike believe's his theory has just been made a fact: francis was there with another girl and this promptly drove leah up the wall. she got so drunk that she made out with this we will call derek. derek used to be my crush... good thing i didn't tell mike who derek was to me or he would have seen a pattern...

so what does this tell me about knowing people you've been with since you were 7 years old? that i can still be surprised. that i am still shockable. that in the end, you can never wholly predict what people can do when they think they're in love. the sad part is, i'm beginning to believe in james... (sigh) it's another crisis waiting to happen. and i'm not supposed to know anything about it.

what next?

one of the most infuriating things i'm always asked (especially by my parents) is "what are your plans?" and i guess i infuriate them right back when i say, "what plans? i don't even know what my plans are for tomorrow."

i'm not playing coy or even trying to be a smart mouth. i really do not know any plans for my future. and by future, i mean five years from now. sure, there are a lot of things i want to do - what i want to be. i want to study abroad. i want to be able to walk the streets of Paris - a la Vivian in Lovers in Paris. i want to be able to go to Greece and walk among the ruins... there's really are a lot i want to do, but as of the present they are not feasible. so, i really am telling the truth when i tell my parents that i do not have plans for my future. what i just listed above were my dreams... are plans and dreams the same?

notice the lack of a dream of a family of my own... at that age, most people would probably be thinking of settling down: getting married, having babies, buying their first house, going through their first separation, finding out they're gay...

at this point in my life, the last thing i want is a life-changing event... well, unless it's a lifestyle-changing event like winning in the lottery... or my parents winning in the lottery... or the marcoses giving me a share of their ill-gotten wealth... or if my recurring dream of my finding a bagful of rolled thousand-peso bills comes true... unless any of the above-mentioned happens, i don't think i'm up for any change as of yet...

so, what's next?

i don't know and that's just fine with me.